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cytophagic
27 October 2011 @ 09:24 am
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Lately I've been gearing up and planning to do NaNoWriMo again this year. I've attempted it the last two years in a row but failed pretty miserably (ie, less than 5k words both times). I just completely fizzled out after I realized that I (a) had absolutely no ideas about where I wanted the story to go, (b) hated all my characters, and (c) was really close to just ripping all my hair out just trying to make my daily word counts. So, this year, there has been actual planning involved. I'm using Scrivener to write an outline of where I want the story to go day-by-day and I really hope that that'll help. So far it seems to be working, I actually like what I've come up with and that's a start.
 
 
Current Music: johnny belinda - active child
 
 
cytophagic
09 March 2011 @ 03:27 pm
 Six months have passed since I last regaled this humble corner of the internet with news of my heroic doings; autumn and winter are over, and I'm now sitting outside with some microwaved Pad Thai and a pack of cigarettes in lovely California sunshine. So hearken unto me, and I will share with you what has been up. 

A few weeks ago I started seeing a therapist (a good one, that doesn't constantly talk about Ayn Rand and weird psychological experiments in the '70s that have nothing to do with anything) which has helped a lot with my anxiety. I haven't had a full-blown panic attack in months, and while I still get smaller anxiety attacks, they seem to at the very least be getting easier to deal with. I just need to learn to tell my parasympathetic nervous system to shape up and fuck right off. 

The last week of February I went to see Henry Rollins at the Coronet in Hollywood, which was insanely awesome. The Coronet is this old-timey-Hollywood theater on La Cienega from I think the 1930s, it's really small (like, about the size of a middle school auditorium) but it has a really cool vibe. I somehow managed to wrangle a seat right in the front row, about 3 feet from the stage which amplified the awesome several times. The show was about 2 1/2 hours long, and he talked mostly about politics and traveling with some random stories about LA in the 80s mixed in, it was really funny and by the end I was wishing it could have gone on longer. 

I've been going into LA pretty often recently, and I really regret that for so long I didn't have the balls to drive there myself. Last weekend Nathan and I spent a couple hours wandering around Santa Monica, listening to the street musicians and the various spoken word stylings of a few very loud homeless people. It's weird, because most of the time I've lived here all I've wanted to do is leave and move back to North Carolina. I hated everything, the brown hills, the beige sprawl of tacky suburbs, and I seriously considered just not coming back from NC when I go next week even if it meant living under a bridge. I don't know, maybe it's because of that, but I've really started to appreciate LA recently. I kind of like the heat and griminess, even the constant traffic and crowds of people. Where else can you buy a vegan tofu burrito from a truck off the street and then listen to a dude dressed as a caveman yell about how Barack Obama is his long lost father?

Still, I'm excited about going back to NC next week, seeing old friends, getting drunk, etc etc. I'm not all that excited about the prospect of a layover in Baltimore and going through the happy-naked-funtime scanners at airport security, but oh well. 
 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: People II (The Reckoning) - The Andrew Jackson Jihad
 
 
cytophagic
19 September 2010 @ 08:05 pm
 So ehm yeah, once again, haven't updated this in forever. First, the good news: I'm coming back to NC in March for my 21st birthday! So hell yeah for that. Neutral news: School started, taking English and Pol/Soc History of the US, and Nathan and I are now perma-broke-up. It's not really that bad, it was coming for awhile and we both knew it so it was pretty clean/non-traumatic. 

I don't think I have any bad news, no new STDs or pregnancies, all my limbs are still in their original positions, so I guess that's it. 
 
 
cytophagic
23 July 2010 @ 12:48 pm
 Cookies, bitch. I made them. 



These here bomb-ass peanut-butter-oatmeal cookies will punch you in the face, force their way down your throat, and kick your ass on the way out and there ain't shit you can do about it. They're all salty-sweet like your ass wouldn't even believe, and they're big enough to use as hubcaps on yo momma's Honda Civic. 

...Okay sorry. But I do get excited when I bake something and it doesn't come out looking like a leper's ballsack. 



 
 
 
Current Music: E-Bow // Sigur Ros
 
 
cytophagic
15 June 2010 @ 06:21 pm
Only five more hours of being in California, two until we have to leave for the airport. I really, really, really do not want to go to Cleveland.
 
 
 
cytophagic
12 June 2010 @ 05:46 pm
Last night Nathan and I went over to Andy's house for one last night of good times before I have to head on out to Cleveland for a week. Here are some highlights of the evening:

1. Going to Costco to buy whiskey, and hearing Andy refer to the walkers they have positioned around the store as "hop-along-tubbies". 

2. Playing with Ehren and Chantel's new baby kitten omgmsdldkdkddkk

3. Watching this video and laughing until I seriously thought i was going to die. 

4. Not losing horribly at Smash Bros for once. 

5. Delicious, delicious In N Out on the way home. 

On a completely unrelated note, here was the highlight of my day todayCollapse )
 
 
Current Music: My mom berating my sister for not doing the dishes
 
 
cytophagic
 So yeah. I'm what you could call "fairly intoxicated" right now, which in Nicolenese means "yay". 

I had two doctor's appointments today, which of course were super fun. I got my pap smeared all over the place, and then an appointment with a therapist, due to my having a panic attack at work a couple weeks ago. After that I took a well deserved nap while watching Futurama (best show ever amirite), then met Nathan at Starbucks, and kicked some serious ass at Wii Tennis. 

I should probably go to bed now, but will probably end up playing Twilight Princess until 4am because that game is like eight different kinds of awesome and I will get past the stupid ass Ice Temple if I have to die trying (and probably will). Worst. Mini-boss. Ever. Seriously, fuck that stupid metal lizard. 

A week from now I'll be in Cleveland, and that really is not a fun thought. 
 
 
Current Mood: drunkdrunk
Current Music: Sigh No More - Mumford & Sons
 
 
cytophagic
Today I went to Borders to buy World War Z as a present for my Arbitrary Day giftee, and ended up spending like 2 hours reading this book called The Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett. It takes place in medieval England and is about a mason who's obsessed with the idea of building a cathedral so he walks around with his family looking for one to work on or build. Then I drove home with the windows down smoking a cigarette, enjoying the warm southern California night air, and singing yelling along with my favorite album ever.

It felt really nice. 
 
 
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: Upward Over The Mountain - Iron & Wine
 
 
cytophagic
07 June 2010 @ 09:44 am
 I woke up this morning with a bottle of beer and a pack of Parliaments next to me, my pants in the hallway, sopping wet, 20 minutes before I need to be at work. 

What. 

I'll be having a word with Mr Jack Daniels about this later. 
 
 
Current Music: Ring of Fire - Johnny Cash & Bob Dylan
 
 
cytophagic
 Well it's been forever since I've updated this here plot of the intertubes where my lj makes its humble home, from a combination of laziness, drunkenness, forgetfulness, and being in a North Korean gulag where wi-fi access is spotty at best. I'll try to update more often from now on, and of course be full of reverence for Dear Leader. 

Anyways. 

My last week has been pretty eventful (at least by my standards), mostly because Nathan's sister and her boyfriend Steve came to visit (oh yeah, Nathan and I got back together). On Tuesday we went hiking in Pt. Mugu, and went down through Big Sycamore Canyon to the beach. I took pictures but am too lazy to upload them now, so just imagine a very pretty place and very sore feet and you'll get the gist of our experience. We also snuck whiskey into Starbucks and played rummy. Good times. 

Then on Thursday I went to go see Mumford & Sons in Hollywood and I had an awesome time. Opening for them was this guy named King Charles who had his hair up in this foot-tall crazy ass pompadour (I think is the word?) and was wearing a white disco-type suit. Needless to say, I liked him. Then after the Middle East played, Mumford & Sons came on and I was having a good time singing along and awkwardly trying to figure out the appropriate times to clap when this tiny 80 year old black woman shoved her way in front of me with a huge cup of booze and started rocking the fuck out pretty aggressively. I wasn't even mad, it was just too funny to see someone's drunk grandma doing the "metal" hand sign and headbanging during an indie-folk-type concert. 

Also recently, I've discovered a fun new hobby called "drink a lot of alcohol every night". Did you know that Triple Sec, gin, and vanilla coke zero tastes exactly like fruit loops? 

I think that's about it. I still work at the library, I'm still in school, and I still have the standard number of limbs, teeth, and extremities. 
 
 
Current Mood: highhigh
Current Music: Red Rocking Chair - Black Prairie